Q's

*Why is it that I always want to start my blog with a comment on this particular day in relation to this week? [I can't believe it's already Thursday, soon it will be monday and my spring break will be over. I need a break from my break]

*Why is it that I live alone and can do whatever I please, but do not allow myself to settle on the couch for a good night's rest in front of the tv? [all I want to do right now is curl up on the couch and 'accidentally' fall asleep, as opposed to prepare for bed and then fall asleep where I am 'supposed to']

*Why does wine always make you a little tipsy in a good way, as opposed to being de-sensitized to a bottle of beer or feeling gross after hard liquor? [had 2 glasses at home tonight while Adam and I made cupcakes. Not tipsy anymore, but I was a little bit. We commented on this exact thought about wine as we poured our glasses]

So many more questions, too annoyed by them to write out more :)

...Had a good few days, I've felt relaxed and productive at the same time....after I finished watching a movie this afternoon, I suddenly felt very empty. Having gotten to most of my spring break goals, I realized that the rest of the break was going to feel very heavy, like an extended Sunday evening before a horrendous Monday morning test. The movie took me away from that feeling for a while, and Adam and my trip to baking-land was another great distraction. A few hours of good conversation and 3 cupcakes later I'm not feeling as empty. I fear that I will again feel weighted-down in a few hours, or at least by tomorrow morning.

I'm still thinking of NY and all my friends from undergrad. It's still all about the paradox that the more success I encounter, the less stable my life will be. Striking that balance (if I have that success) will be my greatest challenge....good thing I don't have to face that challenge tonight. :)

Sogni dolci, bonne nuit, gute nacht~